Remember Where You Came From

I don't know who coined that phrase, but it is exactly what my ilfe is right now.

I am living like I did at 18, as well as when I was living on crack. With the exception of slightly higher standards.

Last night I took my bath in a large rubbermaid continer, fillled with water we had saved from when we illigally had the water on for the weekend. Not only do we not have water, we are soon to lose the electricity!!

Yesturday, my husband told me labor Finder's couldn't put him to work?!? I am plannning on getting my CDL, hopefully in about 6 weeks.

Never let person be your savior, and take care of you, and everything in your life, look at what it has done for me.

Marriage

RESPECT
Me as a Person
My Feelings

YOURSELF!!
HONOUR
The words you speak
Your life

ME!!
OBEY!!
The Vow's We Made
The Heart

MARRIAGE!!

Skeletons never stay in there closet!!

My secret is out!! My husband knows, not that you can't tell me that he had no clue at all. It really doesn't matter now, we have been going down hill way before My secret gift was no longer a secret.
I am now contemplating leaving him. I can't stay here, and have him mentally fuck with me for what he refused to believe.

And for all my Chooosen Family out there, thanks for the LOVE, I needed it!!!

Super Strippper and Generic Girl ride again

I have been on vacation with my son, and enjoying every minute of it. I have also had several friends tring reach me on behalf of my husband. I do appolagize to them for not getting in touch as of yet. I am with a friend I haven't seen in several years, "Generic Girl" and I are having a great time. I will be home soon.

Life is what YOU make it!

I believe everything happens for a reason, it is lifes way of on tje job training!! I have few regreets in my life. Everything I have experienced has been building blocks to what it is I have to overcome presently.

I am enjoying having my son back in my life, He is so cool. I also fear what is in the future for my okdest son. Not to mistake a mother's concern for "whatever" He is an aduldt now, and I can't do anything to fix or prevent his choice's.

Presently I am in an undisclosed location with my blood family close to me, and it feel good. I need a break from my husband, and my Mom graciously offered a solution to my situation, and sent me and my son on a mother son reunion vacation.

I didn't evenm leave a note for my husband, I realize he is going to be angry, but he has no clue how pissed I am with him. The reason for my distast with him isn't important, what is , is the fact that I told him what was bugging me, and he had no reaction what so ever!!!

I sat him down let him know that I needed him to listen to what I had to say, and to consider how, what I was telling him was starting to really piss me off. And, before I let it build up to a temper tantrum, we could work together to fix it. Let me tell you that didn't work out, it was like we didn't come to a solution together!!! He just told me what I wanted to hear, and Continued in the other direction.
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