Headlines Read: Thanx for the Love and support

I don't have time to write much. I am late for work, but I want all to know I needed to hear No one is UNWANTED>


And My FReaky one, I am always ready to run the ponies.

Ponies in my stable

Today, I am just gonna write a simple fantasy, a short fictional story. I would appreciate any feed back on my writing skills, and i do realize my use of grammer is awful.

I say to hell with all the inferior being's in this world. As the hieraechy, it is our dutiful pupose to end the suffering of any and all lives that are not, how do I put this? worth taking up space and time. I say we seek out the weak, the wrong, and the wastful!!! End there lives, quick, and and with little pain. All the ones that have raveged the land, and kept the spoils to themselves. Send them into death, but do so mercifully.

We shall carfully consider the ones to be kept, they shall be of good standards, strong gracefull bodies, and of course be well manered. The best of them shall be the keeper of the other's. They shall manage the rest of our ponies.

The day we have all our ponies segregated in there proper beeeding stables, and the rightful lead stallions keeping them maintianed. Oh. it willl be a celebration!! The female domination of all, well it is as it should be.

Woman are strong when called to be, yet we are soft even when we are hard. yYes, if they only knew, we have united, and we do have it all.

headline reads: sHE HAD SEX W/PARTNER

I had a secret meeting, a much needed sexual encounter!!!! DAMN I can't put it into words how good it felt to get that release!!! My "Fucking Friend" also discovered in me something I didn't know, Ilike to be choked. Not agressivly Pass out, but slowly slipping to extasy.

I am mostly dominate, except w/this one.

I have gone w/out an orgasam w/ another body for the better part of over a year and a half!!

IT WAS INCREDIABLE!!

Emotionally forgotten, the pain of an unwanted soul

Today I am need to address all the forgotten ones, the left behind children. Theese lost souls grow-up, for better or for worse, unfilled with an abyss of emotionally worthless void. These empty vessels of pain, learn only destructive life coping skills. Lots of us lern to camaflouge our behavior very effectivly. Quite similiar to a sniper hiding in plain sight waiting for that one shot. We the lost and forgotten ones, walk amoung everyone else with very fragile outer skins. Our lon wolf path begins the with our first memory of the most important loved ones in our life, not even seeing that we are right there. We are watching them walk through ou soul, and out the door in our life. You are first taechers of love, and trust, just leave us anywhere anytime ad with the worst of people to care for us, or take us from the best of people who want us.


I was a forgotten child, I was left battered and scarred so empty was my heart from what little LOVE my giver of life leeft me. I lived in an eggshell, afraid of letting other people in. I so blindly inspired to be just like the most evil influnce of my life. Now that I am an older woman am only begingig to truly see just how unwanted I was by this person, and it i almost to late for me to repair the emotional pain I have scarred my mot beloved gifts of life.

Still here I sit afraid of what Is needed for me to change, and reclaim my forgottten ones.

Natural born entertainers

what a week end!! So It's official, I am working again. I am danicing again, and the only positive I can tell ya is I am getting back in shape. Suprisingly fast!!! I also get to do my shows!!! I love dusting off all the old theatrical gear, and working the crowd, and playing my props. You see for me being a dancer is not so much about the money, grant it that was a bonous. No, I am more into the Entertaining side of stripping!!! I dreamed of running away to New Orleans to dance burlesque!!! In the beging years dancing, I did silly little shows, not realizing that were feature enterainers out there making good money doing exactly what I was doing, only on a grander scale.

After I saw my first feature dance, I knew that was what I wanted to be. I was twenty-something was told I was already to old to be a feature. If I could see that man now, I got my first title at the age of 31!!! I was 32 when I was crowned w/ The Miss Nude Petite title.

The best feeling I know Is hearing a crowd holla, sing, and trully enjoy my quirkey antics I performe on the stage. Oh yes the applouse the award me with for my interpretations in the art of stripping.


The compliments, and praise after the show, it is the best rush in life.

Entertaiment is in my blood. As A youngster I would always gather all my siblings and our friends, and off to my room we went to practice a play that I had put to gether. I alsways madesure we went christmass caroling, event in grade school. I would get my friends together, and we would pracitice dace routine, plays, and talent shows for the other classmates at the end of the week.

all I am gonna say iis, If only everyone couls experience living there dream, for a moment in life.

eace to all
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Happy New Year all

I hope everyone brouth there new year in with the people that were important in there lives. I did, kinda. I was with my husband and my best frien and his girlfriend. at midnight I was toasting the next year that I know is gonna be gone in a minute, and kissed my Husband (for maybe only the 2nd time in 5 years) hugged my friends, and there was an unexpected new face there, the coctail waitress I know from another time. Then I sent all my friends a message, as well as my oldest son, who, by the way, isnot speaking to me.

Which brings me back to the "most Part" of this year. Last year I had my oldest one here, and instead of spending that midnight special momoent w/him, I was at the casono down the street hustling a "succer" with a couple of fiends that were at the part taking place at my apartmment. This was also the location of my child!!!! HELLO STUPIS HEAD GIRL, the cats in the craddle and all that musicl wisdom, my son is growing up almost just like me. He isn't gonna call me till friday, and I know thar money doesn't buy love, but tonight I am going to work, and I will do what is necessary to get himmore than the amp he wasnt, I will come home with the money for a new top of the line system for his ride!! It may not buy his Love, but I promise it will get him here before friday!!!!!

I am working on a New Year's resolution, Iwant make it one that I can kepp, as well as folllow into a new way of living. Something more than Just quit smoking, or lose weight. No this one is going to be a changs in my personal lifestyle!!!

Most important is to let my children know however I can that I am here for them, maybe late but on time for this llife I ave choose. Also, I need to improve on my daily routine, I need to findthat zest for life, and live it. Even if it means I need to get myself in a HUM< DRUM routine. Ya know semi NORMAl-yes ya know that cycle on the washing machine, NORMAL!

I hope my words find someone out there who understands, and relizies I searching for a support network for all this. If te creator of life hasn't landed me in that zone, then I must find it for myself. I need to make it happen.


BOTTLE'S O' WHISKEY AND BUCKETS O' BEER IAM WISHING YOU ALL A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!