Just blowin off stem

Today they shut downtown down, and surprise (i say sarcastically)! he didn't turn his phone on until way to late. after I spoke my peace, I told retardo, I Loved him and, hung up. Only to later receive his apology text, sympathetic smiley face included.
ya know what I don't give a rat's ass!!
I will show up when I decide to, and screw him, I will party independently from him. This feels good.

Date NOT

Ok, so It's 8am an we are heading home? Can someone help me with this one!!

Let me take you back to last Saturday night/Sunday morning-First he got his bike fixed, and then it broke down again, and last he showed up at my "Web Cam room" at around 2 am, and wait for it:

SO WE HAD ANOTHER TALK!!! After "said" talk, I insisted on a mandatory Date for Saturday night. I didn't care if wed sat on the roof, at home and stargazed drinking tea. Let's have some Quality marriage repair time.

He showed up at My Web room, 40 miles away from home, with sushi for 3, and 2 bottles of wine. Where did we spend "said" date night? On the couch in the living room where I work. With my friends. How Romantic is that?

I am sick of being kept away from home, I know it is my home, right? Well, be that as it may, sometimes it's better not to know. you understand?

Reality is I am the Queen of championing Lost cause's, and no matter how hard I work to mend our marriage, I am going down with the boat. Fighting till there is nothing left.

You know all I want is for someone to share what is My Life, with. I need to connect with a soul, other than retatrdo the romance fizz fade,and Friends.

I can't help but think of Queen and Freddy Mercury's song can somebody find me someone to LOVE!!!

my cam show

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

It was time tr pull a pony out of the pasture, ans administer some ligh punishment. So after having my pony secure a private room, I showed up, for the purpose of working this retired pony for a couple of hours.

It had been a while since I put this pony through his paces. Not surprising at all he was truly ready to be obedient to me.

After a short amount of time, I slipped into my attire, and after pleasuring myself, as my pony could only watch, I allowed him to remove his clothes. I then administered hi punishment. How good it felt to make him beg, and crawl at my feet.

enough punishment, I needed to be satisfies, I unsecured his restraints, placed condom on his cock with erotic pleasure for him. Then as I bentover the barstool, demanding him to fuck me, he did just that. Hard, and fast,sadly this pony got put back out o pasture, he needs to learn stamina.

Changes

I am watching a horribledisaster, in slow motion, and I can't do anything to stop it. It's my life, and I am not good with change. Change always breaks down every part of my being, leaving me forced to rebuild myself with the scraps left over.

I am reluctant to admit, but this, but it is the stagnate, slow passing of time when I am most vulnerable. It sux's.

I know I need to put on my Big Girl Panties, and just deal with it.