Happy New Year all

I hope everyone brouth there new year in with the people that were important in there lives. I did, kinda. I was with my husband and my best frien and his girlfriend. at midnight I was toasting the next year that I know is gonna be gone in a minute, and kissed my Husband (for maybe only the 2nd time in 5 years) hugged my friends, and there was an unexpected new face there, the coctail waitress I know from another time. Then I sent all my friends a message, as well as my oldest son, who, by the way, isnot speaking to me.

Which brings me back to the "most Part" of this year. Last year I had my oldest one here, and instead of spending that midnight special momoent w/him, I was at the casono down the street hustling a "succer" with a couple of fiends that were at the part taking place at my apartmment. This was also the location of my child!!!! HELLO STUPIS HEAD GIRL, the cats in the craddle and all that musicl wisdom, my son is growing up almost just like me. He isn't gonna call me till friday, and I know thar money doesn't buy love, but tonight I am going to work, and I will do what is necessary to get himmore than the amp he wasnt, I will come home with the money for a new top of the line system for his ride!! It may not buy his Love, but I promise it will get him here before friday!!!!!

I am working on a New Year's resolution, Iwant make it one that I can kepp, as well as folllow into a new way of living. Something more than Just quit smoking, or lose weight. No this one is going to be a changs in my personal lifestyle!!!

Most important is to let my children know however I can that I am here for them, maybe late but on time for this llife I ave choose. Also, I need to improve on my daily routine, I need to findthat zest for life, and live it. Even if it means I need to get myself in a HUM< DRUM routine. Ya know semi NORMAl-yes ya know that cycle on the washing machine, NORMAL!

I hope my words find someone out there who understands, and relizies I searching for a support network for all this. If te creator of life hasn't landed me in that zone, then I must find it for myself. I need to make it happen.


BOTTLE'S O' WHISKEY AND BUCKETS O' BEER IAM WISHING YOU ALL A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!