I had a great weekend!! Partied at the St. Paddy's day parade, and visited the bike expo., and I am adding wickedly, made "my Presence Known" to a past lover. It's not that this man broke my heart, more like I broke his. I didn't realize that he would become obbsessed, and stalk me when I didn't want to lave my husband for him?? Hell hews in my weddding!!! He is partially responsable for The Biggest Sacrafice IN My LIFE. I experienceced the greatest gift, and equally painful loss. I found joy in him seeing, but not being seen by me. Coupled wit the reality that my painful gift, will he will never ever know!!

I am a sexual being, and I can adit it. I'm not one for mushy gushy emtional bullshit, not when the sex is hot!!! I am quite comfortable with guiltless pleasure between 2 consenting adults. i suppose that is why having a playmate that is in a relatioship with someone seperate from our playdate's is what I am looking for. Yes, love your spouse, but let's "FUCKING PLAY!"

Don't get me wrongg I love my husband, but we haven'y fucked since Pig's had wings!! I don't mind if he finds a fucking friend, as long as he is either disc reet with her, or honest with me!! If people would just get to the brutal truth of themselves, the nature of there needs, and put it all out there in the light, I believe life would be much easier.

It is hard to hide one's "real" sidee from life's "normal" people, folks's that are just exactly like us, but ashamed of that darker side. Everyday fighting with the desire to open up and be more true to themselves.

That's why I love the Parade, eveery year "normal" people get a day to dress up, let there hair down,, an let tthe beast they are ashamed off loose on the street of the city. It's a wondorous site tom, The Freak in real life!!